Happy 2 years to me.

I have decided after much agonizing this week over that horrible day 2 years ago, that I need to look at all the wonderful things that happen the rest of that week 2 years ago. I have found my peace now and think I can finally start on my emotional hurts fromt hat accident. Also that week I met the most wonderful caring man in the world and we started our lifes together on a new foot. I also realize how much my kids mean to me and how easy it is to lose them. I am going to try and be better for my children because it is so easy for one moment to happen and not have them anymore. My husband helped me through those hard times 2 years ago just by being there. And I am so greatful to him, he gave me a reason to go on and gave me that fighting chance. I am slao great to his awesome family for all their prayers and concerns for me. They didn't even know me yet but gave so much of themselves. I wish there were more people like them in this world. So in the end this week has accomplished alot. Here is to me turning over a new leaf! I am going to try and be a better wife and mother to my family, because without them I would not be here today.

2 years!

It was 2 years ago on this day that I rolled my car and defeated death at least for a few more years. It is also 2 years ago on this day that I looked up from my hospital bed and saw my handsome angel standing over me saying that he was there now and everything would be okay. I honestly don't even know how I made it through except by the shear grace of God. Today is a really hard day for me. I was up at 5:15am (time of the accident). I was woken by the felling of rolling my car again and couldn't fall back to sleep. I cried in my angel's arms and once again he said " I am here baby, everything will be okay." I don't know what I would have done without him here by my side these last 2 years, But I know I will never have to be without him again. It is just wierd because last year at this same time we were moving back to AZ and I really didn't have a bad response to it, yet this year I just keep envisioning it again and again. Hopefully this day will get better, but it has started out so harsh. I just know that my angel will be here to comfort me and protect me for the rest of my life, and I need to beleive him when he says it will be okay. Because 2 years ago when I looked up into those beautiful blue eyes and handsome face I knew that all would be okay if I just trusted him. It just shows how much you come to lossing everything and I look into my husbands and kids faces and know that God had a plan. He put me through this trial to make me stronger and to learn something from it. This trial brought me and my angel closer together and for that I am so thankful.