Well I have been super busy the last week and figured I would up date everyone. My brother Eric took his own life on September 25th. He was a very good man, but he had alot of problems letting go and dealing with all of the things he had seen and done in Iraq 3 years ago when he was there. He left behind a 9 year old son. The very hard part was we thought he was getting better he had been clean and drug free for 5 months and was working a really good job. We had all seen him on the 21st for his son's birthday and he seemed to be doing really good and he seemed happy. He was making plans for his future, so this came as an absolute shock to all of us. He did not leave a note or anything so none of us understand why. I just know that he will be greatly missed by all of us. He loved his band and his son dearly. The picture I put on here is from friday when he was playing air hockey with Bethy. I truely hope that my brother has finally found peace and solace. My brother loved all of the kids and where ever there were kids he was sure to be there hanging out with them. He taught Beth how to play drums and baseball. He was the one to give her her first baseball bat and football when she was born. He told her "you can learn to play football too even though you are a girl. Because your mom and I played on the same team in jr. high." My only regret is that Gav and Katie will not get to know him as Bethy did. Right now it is hard to even think without remembering him. And as my kids say I am losing my mind because I can't remember anything I am suppost to do. His depression became too much and it swallowed him up. It is hard to believe that life will go back to normal again even though we didn't spend alot of time with him we knew we could pick up the phone and call him anytime and he would be there to help out. Now we can't do thet anymore. But life will go on and we will all adjust I believe it will be very hard but know we will all remember the good times. Sorry that this is a sad post I just needed to let it all out.
