Tonight will be the first time I have left my little guy for more then an hour since he has been born. Plus we will be about half an hour away so that is the furthest away I have been from him. I am really nervous about it but I know in my heart he will be okay.
Garrett has his company Christmas party tonight and I am so excited to go with him and get some adult time finally after 9 months.
My milk supply is going down (TMI, I know) so I couldn't pump alot of milk so I got him to drink some formula and he is doing fine on it, so am gonna start supplementing with that so I can have some time.
So I have his bag packed for grandma's house, with momma milk, formula, baby food, treats, and juice. I am sure he won't need all of it but it is a very nervous time for me. This is a first.
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
feel like crying
err it has been one of those days. Garrett and I haven't talked since coming home from FHE last night. Well about 30 min after. We got in a huge blow up and I just went to bed while feeding Dougie. So we haven't talked and it has created this black overcast over my day.
Plus my milk supply seems to be going away this last week. I want to continue nursing until he is 1 but it doesn't seem like it is gonna work. I feel like a failure for my son cause he is always so hungry which makes me think he isn't getting enough milk.
Then I feel on the verge of a mental breakdown because all the running around I am having to do and all the kids needing something. Plus being sick and have some sick grumpy kids and a sick hubby. It is all wearing on me. I just want to say I give up and run away for a couple days and let some magical fairy come take care of it all.
I am stressed to the max but even taking a bath doesn't work cause Dougie screams the whole time. He wants to get in the bath too or he just wants his mama. I love him to death but having to hold him most of the day plus when he is taking naps and then while we go to bed at night is just killing me. I have no down time.
Now on top of that the kids weren't doing the laundry right no matter how many times we showed them so Garrett has decided to add this task to my everyday chores. "Because I don't do alot and it can't be that hard to throw a load of laundry in." Then by the time all the kids go to bed I am ready to pass out but Garrett wants his time too, so I am staying up until 12 or 1 and then getting up at least twice a night and finally up at 6.
Please tell me that this will all slow down at some point cause it is killing me.
The most horrible is feeling like I am drying up and can't feed my little guy anymore and I think most of that is because of the stress, but I don't know how to get rid of it.
Plus my milk supply seems to be going away this last week. I want to continue nursing until he is 1 but it doesn't seem like it is gonna work. I feel like a failure for my son cause he is always so hungry which makes me think he isn't getting enough milk.
Then I feel on the verge of a mental breakdown because all the running around I am having to do and all the kids needing something. Plus being sick and have some sick grumpy kids and a sick hubby. It is all wearing on me. I just want to say I give up and run away for a couple days and let some magical fairy come take care of it all.
I am stressed to the max but even taking a bath doesn't work cause Dougie screams the whole time. He wants to get in the bath too or he just wants his mama. I love him to death but having to hold him most of the day plus when he is taking naps and then while we go to bed at night is just killing me. I have no down time.
Now on top of that the kids weren't doing the laundry right no matter how many times we showed them so Garrett has decided to add this task to my everyday chores. "Because I don't do alot and it can't be that hard to throw a load of laundry in." Then by the time all the kids go to bed I am ready to pass out but Garrett wants his time too, so I am staying up until 12 or 1 and then getting up at least twice a night and finally up at 6.
Please tell me that this will all slow down at some point cause it is killing me.
The most horrible is feeling like I am drying up and can't feed my little guy anymore and I think most of that is because of the stress, but I don't know how to get rid of it.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Less stress
I have been so stressed out lately. Dougie has been so grumpy and not like himself. Plus had alot of resentment toward Hubby and other kids, mostly cause of the stress.
Well last night after F.H.E. we came home and actually sat and talked for a couple hours about all the different stuff. Plus Dougie actually slept all night! I am feeling so much better today. I feel like a huge weight is lifted off of me. I actually like my hubby and kids again.
Well I better go play with Dougie, he is trying to help mama type right now and laughing.
Well last night after F.H.E. we came home and actually sat and talked for a couple hours about all the different stuff. Plus Dougie actually slept all night! I am feeling so much better today. I feel like a huge weight is lifted off of me. I actually like my hubby and kids again.
Well I better go play with Dougie, he is trying to help mama type right now and laughing.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Sick and grumpy
It has been one of those days. I have been up since 3am because my dear sweet baby has decided that he doesn't like to sleep anymore and is afraid he will miss something. Plus I woke up to a head cold.
After being up at 3 am with the baby I decided at 7 am that it was hubby's turn to help with him so I could sleep for an hour. Well when I woke him up I was told "well you could have laid him on the blanket and let him play." I was so upset by this. Yes I could have left him on the blanket but then I would have had to listen to him scream cause he is also congested so it bothers him to lay flat.But mainly it urked me because I had been up for 4 hrs already with him and I just wanted 1 hour to try and rest and feel better. I just didn't think it would be too much to ask after he got to sleep and I went and took care of the little guy.
Yes I know part of my problem is I am so sick that it is making me exhausted and grumpy but I was just floored that G would tell me that!
I think I just need to be away from everyone until I feel better cause I know I am in this grumpy mood and I just feel like I want to snarl at everyone. The world is a dark dreary place for a tired and sick mama right now.
Plus there is so much other garbage floating around in my mind that it is just making it worse. I keep my mouth closed typical because I know it will hurt people but today I lost that control a couple times, so hopefully G and I can talk about it. So0me days I want to let lose about all the stuff bothering me but honestly I don't even know how without sounding very mean.
After being up at 3 am with the baby I decided at 7 am that it was hubby's turn to help with him so I could sleep for an hour. Well when I woke him up I was told "well you could have laid him on the blanket and let him play." I was so upset by this. Yes I could have left him on the blanket but then I would have had to listen to him scream cause he is also congested so it bothers him to lay flat.But mainly it urked me because I had been up for 4 hrs already with him and I just wanted 1 hour to try and rest and feel better. I just didn't think it would be too much to ask after he got to sleep and I went and took care of the little guy.
Yes I know part of my problem is I am so sick that it is making me exhausted and grumpy but I was just floored that G would tell me that!
I think I just need to be away from everyone until I feel better cause I know I am in this grumpy mood and I just feel like I want to snarl at everyone. The world is a dark dreary place for a tired and sick mama right now.
Plus there is so much other garbage floating around in my mind that it is just making it worse. I keep my mouth closed typical because I know it will hurt people but today I lost that control a couple times, so hopefully G and I can talk about it. So0me days I want to let lose about all the stuff bothering me but honestly I don't even know how without sounding very mean.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
2 month pics
Sorry it has taken a bit, but he is mama's boy and wants to be held constantly so kinda hard being on the computer.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
Introducing
Craig Douglas "Dougie"
He made his quick entrance into the world at 7:07 pm on March 6th. My water broke at 3:10 and he was born 4 short hours later. He was 5lbs 9 oz and 19 inches long. He is so perfect.
Friday, March 5, 2010
Is he ever gonna come out?
I am so tired of being pregnant! Yes I know I am only 37.5 weeks, but I have had enough. With the constant contractions that hurt so bad for a couple hours then they go away... like he is taunting me. I was 4 weeks early with Katie and was so set on having him soon. This little guy just does not want to come out. I think he has decided to just stay stuck in there permently! As I type this he is kicking me and sticking his little butt out! LOL I am just impatient and can't wait to meet the little guy, and see what he looks like. But alas he is never going to come out!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Our Definitions
So on face book they are using the Urban dictonary definition of your name to post and I know G-Rat would kill me if I did his on there so I will do it on here, hehe
HIS:
Very pretty! Smart and is a good mate,
will stick up for her mates. Popular and everyone likes her! One heck of a person
And the funniest one: Beautiful; her milkshake brings all the boys to the yard. Always wanted yet often unattainable.
HIS:
An extremely hot guy who looks like an Abercrombie Model!!! He is very athletic and all the girls like him.
"OMG i just saw Garrett and my heart sunk to my feet!!!"
One who exhibits etreme model like hottness
MINE:
nice, fun, pretty, giving, friendly, amazing, and all around probably the best person in the whole entire world!!MINE:
Very pretty! Smart and is a good mate,
will stick up for her mates. Popular and everyone likes her! One heck of a person
And the funniest one: Beautiful; her milkshake brings all the boys to the yard. Always wanted yet often unattainable.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
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