Light

Well I have finally found the light at the end of the tunnel. I swear to you I am not crazy, I just fell that I am sometimes. the joys of working and being a mom and student. I finally sat down and talked to Steve about his attitude toward me doing everything for him and changing my schedule constantly when ever he calls. He was actually quite understanding and apoligized for taking advantage of me and my time. I let him know that I enjoy having the time with Katie but can't change everything when ever he decides to change shifts or has something going on and needs me to watch her and then decides he doesnt need me to and he completely understood. It was so amazing that me just talking to him and telling him exactly how I felt about it made me feel so better. I also talked to G and told him some of the things that I have been holding in for awhile. So me having a day where I was able to tell everyone exactly what has been bugging me and how I feel about things did me a lot of good. I feel so free now instead of feeling so icky from keeping everything in. I realized it is so much better to have someone to vent to then keep it in until I just see the darkness, and my poor hubby gets most of the brunt of it if I keep it in. So my sweet husband has decided we would make time each day to actually talk about how the day went and if anything is bugging me, without having the little ones in the next room to hear all of it. So we will probably go for walks like his parents just so we can talk for a bit and let everything out about our days. Wow it is so nice to finally be in the light again and be so free feeling. Sorry my blogs have been dreary lately hopefully they will be more happy and light from now on. I have finally found my rainbow after the storm even though he was there the hole time and I was breaking him apart with all my emotions. I know it isn't the best picture but he is my rainbow and the light at the end of my tunnel.